happy valentine's day!

i have to say that i really like valentine's day. i like being able to wear pink & eat candy for absolutely no reason except in knowing that someone loves me.

and Somebody does love me! (and you, by the way)

i realized tonight at Shout (on-campus worship) that i only have, like 2 half months until graduation (yes, i cried about it). but, holy cow, that scares me a lot! i don't even know where i'm going after graduation. in six months, i could be in north dakota for all i know!

it sucks that i have to give up my will to work for God. you might think that it's less stressful to "let go & let God" but on the contrary, it's an insane amount of stress that some can't even dream of!

when i'm stressed, i cry. when i'm upset, i cry. when i'm happy & i laugh too hard, i cry. i cry for my roommate & i cry for myself. i like to cry. it relieves my stress & inhibitions.

crying is good for the soul.

i have come to terms with the fact that i'm messy. i just am. i come home & i leave my things everywhere. in the living room. the bathroom. my bed and/or bedroom. i'm just messy, but i know where everything is & i have no worries. i just feel bad for the three other ladies that live with me. acknowledging my messiness isn't an excuse, it's accepting the hard facts of life as a college student. honestly, though, when i live by myself, i have a strange feeling that i'll suddenly want everything clean & in order. ironic, isn't it? maybe subconsciously, i want to annoy my roommate with the "clutter of kelsey". hmmmm, interesting thought. . .

people annoy me when they correct my e-mail grammar &/or spelling.

pray for: proloy & his family, my graduating sadness, people who annoy me, my unknown future career, & motivation to clean up my clutter.

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p.s. i'm taking a pilates class tomorrow morning at 8:30am. . . ha, i'll let you know how this brilliant idea goes down!