homesick

i'm feeling very nostalgic today. being at home makes me realize how much i miss being home. life was so much easier than now. no bills to pay, laundry to do, or living on my own. i wish i could stay here forever. i'm going back to school tomorrow & with it comes with papers due, tests, & projects.

i just feel so overwhelmed & i think that's the root of this homesickness i'm feeling. i'm overwhelmed w/ my final DCE project, this huge paper i have to write for critical thinking (i'm obviously not the best critical thinker around, so you can see my dilemma), & i my internship scares me. what if i'm placed in texas? what if i get placed at a church that hates me or loves me & i'm not loving it? argh! i just need to have faith, but it's difficult to have faith when i'm feeling this way. things were so much easier. . .

i had a dream about nebraska again last night. i really need to go visit everyone for graduation, but i don't think that's a possibility. i just miss my friends. . . :(

alright, well this pity-party needs to stop. my life ahead will be exciting, won't it?

pray for me & my homesickness, scaredy-cat, don't want to grow up-ness. thanks

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